In Reality and In Sanity

It's close to 1AM.

I was on my bed getting ready to sleep.

but when things happen you seem to think so much 

that you can't even ask your brain to SHUT UP and SLEEP.

when you lie down and stare into the darkness...

All these things run through your mind.

I think I have wrote this kinda posts a few times.

and whole lot of this is coming from my mind and my heart.

I got out of bed, on my laptop.

I just needed somewhere to blurt everything out.

and what a good place to do that is at my own blog.

I have this..personality where..

I usually just say whatever comes to mind.

If i don't like it, i say i don't like it.

If i hate it, i'll say i hate it.

Why twist around the words?

But, well..some people can't accept the fact that..

Well..i'm just like that.

So mainly, I'm a bitch for being like that i suppose.

Not the first I'm called a bitch.

But honestly speaking, every girl is a bitch.

Because..seriously, which girl doesn't bitch bout another or someone?

I highly doubt that not a single girl does it.

I know i've been bitched about,

I know I bitch about people,

People say shit about me, 

Everyone has their own shit to say about other people's shit.

Sometimes, when people say something..

and they might not know it's offensive or insulting to some people..

but when someone reads that sentence, 

usually it triggers this emotion. Anger.

So when someone says something bad about something,

and another says something bad at that person.

I usually tend to do that.

Cause when i see something that to me is insulting,

i usually say back something about that person.

and then I feel all guilty after that. 

Well, this posts is to say 

I'm sorry to those who I may have insulted, offended and etc.

Usually people say words don't matter,

but actually it does.

So I'm sincerely sorry from the past till now for whatever I have said.

if you still wanna think im a bitch or hate me or whatever is it.

Curse me or whatever SHIT.

Really go ahead, it ain't the first.

I see nothing happening to me honestly, so dont bother cursing.

People like me always have a lot of haters,

cause we always say stuff that people usually don't wanna hear.

So what can i say? 

I obviously know i have a lot of people hate me..

which I may not know or know.

but at least i know who my true friends are.

it's better to lose the friends that doesn't appreciate and understand you, 

and have only one that truly does. 

and come to think of it.. i have more than one friend who does that :)

but really (I'm taking this from PENNY's status) Which i saw LOL

Don't judge my attitude and my personality together, my personality is about me

and my attitude depends on you

So, there's nothing wrong with my personality,

If i have an attitude with you? it's most probably cause of you anyways.

I was born like that.

or shall i say it in GAGA words

"I was born this way"

So haters gonna hate.

Everyone has haters somehow, i just seem to have double. LOL

So, to people whom i have hurt with my words, 

i'm sorry.

but to those who used it against me? Fuck you :)

CHEERS MOTHERFUCKERS!

-VIP-