Don't judge a book by its cover.

Let me just say this one thing.
I am what I am today is because of what I went through.

If you're wondering why I'm so tough,
why am I even this size,
why I'm always so rough.

You wanna know WHY?
WHY?
You might think I'm a bully.
With this size and all for a girl.
Too tall, Too big.

First, I'm born this size.
I can't go back to a size 0 cause I never was a size 0.

Well, let me tell you this.
I wasn't the bully.
I was the one being bullied back in primary and high school.

I was mocked, I was teased, I was joked around,
I got my books torn all over,
I had names called,
I had people writing shit on my stuff,
I had people threw a chair at me,
I had people just throwing my stuff into the rubbish bin.
I had  people stealing my stuff,
I had people stapling up my pencil box when I'm not around,
I even got slapped by a senior for no apparent reason.
I had people pulling my hair.
I was called fat,
I was called a whale,
I was called a bitch.
Too many stuff to name in one shit sentence.

Yea, believe or not I went through that shit through primary & high school.
When I told my parents, what did they say?
It's impossible.
Someone like me? getting bullied? I should be the one bullying people.
Told my mom about it.
What did she say?
"If you don't disturb people, how can people disturb you? you must have done something to them"

yea I must have exist in front of them to disturb them.
My presence could be the worse.
Yay fucking me.

Those memories just isn't a good one to remember.
Ihateitbackthen.

and now I know not to let people push me around,
and that is why I am who I am now.
So get all that shit straight.

-VIP-