I can't deal with it any longer

I'm not sure...
But I think I deal with this shit everyday.
Your damn shit everyday.
I don't even know no why you turn like this.
why are you like this.
you weren't like this.
why change
what changed?

it's a never ending thing.
never learning from mistakes
never learning what needs to be done first.
never learning which is your priority.
are we not your priority.
is your family not your priority.
do you think you're leaving in a hotel where you just come in
watch television. kick your feet up, give us money only when we ask.

who do you think are we.
I can't come to an understanding why are you like this.
everyone else learns from their mistake
but you never do.
Mistakes after mistakes after mistakes
and you assume that after all that mistakes  we'll just go with it.
You assume after all that mistakes we'll give you a break.

People learn from mistakes, why can't you.
why are you so ignorant.
we're your only family left.
I don't get it all.
I'm already 21. and yet nothing has improved.

What have  you done,
What did you do,
When have you ever,
When did you ever.
tell me. when, where, when, how, why.
I want all this answered.

How can you be so ignorant.
How can you be so selfish.
How can you be so disgusting
How can you be so not supportive.
How. Really. How.

As if dealing with my university things is not stressful enough.
I come back having to deal with your shit
If I don't deal with your shit, I have to hear your shit from mom.
Every single freaking day.

I go to campus I get stress
I come home I get stress.
As if having assignments and exams is not enough for me to handle.
I have to do everything on my own since I was 12.
What have you EVER done for me.
EVER.

Everything is just disappointing right now and I can't seem to deal with it any more.
I have been "dealing with it" for the pass 10 years.
I don't think I can deal with it any longer.period.

-VIP-