A little obstacle Well Not Really.

It's been two weeks since I came back from Korea.

I sure do miss the place. 

Wish I could turn back time.

Mainly impossible.

Been a little depressed, emo, sad, worried and confused.

Most nights, I'll think too much, worry too much

I'll just end up crying myself to sleep.

\Crying, in a way does make you go to sleep super easy.

Cause you just tired mentally and physically and

you just black out from all the tears you pour out.

I think I'm being a little too negative.

Maybe too much which is why it took a toll on me.

I'm trying to look on the brighter side.

Really I am TRYING.

But it's not easy as it sounds.

I mean I am thankful for those who answered my calls

or some who tried to help me

especially my mom

who gave me so much advice and in a way

it made me even more upset.

I mean it shouldn't 

but I guess I feel sorry.

I haven't even exactly started in life and yet

I feel like I failed.

Pathetic right.

Like COME ON. I'm only in my 20's.

SERIOUSLY

like get a hold of yourself Michelle Wong

What is wrong with you.

Getting scared, Getting worried.

People always think I'm brave and whatever.

Yea, I'm not okay.

Just cause I don't show it doesn't mean I'm not!!!!!!!!

Is a girl my size not allowed to be scared?

Is a girl my size stereotyped to be the strong brave one?

Mother fucker to all that fucking bullshit.

Okay I really need to stop myself now.

If I let myself continue,

I'm gonna probably ending up hurting myself,

hurting other people and

mainly regret that I ever said it.

bye.