Depression Mode

Freaking Emo Post Ahead Alert.

Technically,
It's been a rough month for me.
Starting with all the assignments and the surviving on few hours of sleep.
Times are rough.

I can't stop myself from thinking so much.
All the worrying.
What happens, If this happens how.

There's so many things to worry about.
I'm not even sure if a normal person can worry this much in their entire lifetime.
Heart is so heavy at times I don't even know if it's something to worry about.

I think it's been a while since I last spilled tears while writing a post.
I guess I have so much on my shoulders I can't stand it.

It's not like my situation back home is any better
compared to being in campus.
I came home I get the stress, I get the pressure.
I go to campus I get the stress, I get the pressure.

When don't I get those?
sleep.
But even when I sleep, I dream of such nonsense I end up waking up in tears

well, this is depressing.
I'm being so depressed right now I don't even know why.

I guess here I am seeing everyone that has their own thing.
They have something they're good at.
and Here. Here I am.
Typing this shit.

What can I do.
I do ask myself that multiple times.
I can't answer myself for all those times I asked myself.

I can't believe I'm listening to EXO Open arms and I'm crying.
fuck this shit man.

It's amazing not once, once anyone said to me those words.
I've always said it to all of my friends.
And I just realize not one, okay technically there's one
but.....what a disappointment.